Disappointed

why is this happening again??
when I felt more deeply he just went away
I realize this is all my fault
I let my self filled with doubt and hesitation
I finally fell into the same mistake
I regret all my ignorance
but I know regret will earn nothing
I know regret will not restore state
I think I get hurt again
though probably not as deep as the former
but it still imprint in my the heart
this makes me even more scared to find love again
this makes me reluctant to open a new leaf
I do not want to be given a second chance
because I knew there would not be easy for you and for me to repeat it again
it's just that I feel disappointed
i'm honestly get very" dissapointed
why so fast you move into another's heart?
I know that i'm not perfect
but it is a live
fully kind of Meander
sometimes I can not live it
I was filled with the very difficult choices
and i've choosed my choice
a choice that dropped me into a big mistake (again !)